(even though I love the guy, that vid was just taking to long to load..)

That pretty much sums up what I think about THAT.

I suppose I'm feeling more introspective than usual lately, and I realized I haven't blogged as much as I used to. Therefore, a lot of the life events over the last year may have been omitted. Even if they weren't, let's go through the list again....


11 Things That Happened Over the Last Year

1. In October, I started full time at the best job of my career. The subject definitely isn't as fun as when I was in SH, but in terms of responsibility, work environment, and fulfillment, this job is the shizzle.
2. I traveled to Ontario to see a great friend get married, and reconnected with some other great friends. And I miss them.
3. I went to my 10 year high school reunion, and probably partied more that night then I did in High School. Mind you, that wouldn't be hard to do, since I was pretty square in high school.
4. My sister got married, bought a house and had a beautiful, wonderful, kick-ass little girl.
5. I also bought a house (what, hadn't you heard?)
6. I overcame one of my biggest fears in life, driving. Well, I'm still a nervous driver, but at least the province has deemed me safe to be on the road by myself.
   
7. With the exception of 2 cigarillos (one when my niece was born, the other when I got my license), I am no longer smoking. I used to sneak ciggies every now and again, but one day, something just clicked that I wasn't really enjoying it anymore.
   
8. I got shingles. What the hell?
9. I got to go to Winnipeg as a support person at a conference. No one told me he had a gambling problem, and he ended up blowing his full week of per diems in the hour I was up in my room.
10. I actually think it's reasonable to get up at 6am.
    
11. My father got fired from his job of 30 years, a few months before he was to retire.

Yes, I'm 29, and a homeowner, and I'm an adult. But, damnit, I still like to feel special on my birthday. Maybe I'm turning a corner, but in all my years previous, I always treat it as my special day. I know a lot of people treat it as just another day, or, worse, another nail in the coffin, but I still do get excited.

This year was pretty different. I now have new respect for people who have birthdays around Christmas who sometimes get forgotten or at the very least not as celebrated. Because of all the craziness from the move, I got a lot of attention and help (financial and otherwise) from family (and to a lesser extent, friends, when I let them), so they were all just out of steam when my birthday rolled around. And I totally get it, I was feeling that way myself. I got a cheque and a gift card and a few phone calls, and I was happy.

I was looking to MW to blow me away, but he is one of those people who doesn't really put a lot of pomp into birthdays. And that's okay. It's a difference we have. But with that said, he did some really bonehead things this year that were not acceptable.

That's not important, though. What is important is this: I went to bed early last night, finally having reached my boiling point. I laid in bed, reading, seething, with emotion seeping out of my face. MW got in bed with me and awkwardly tried to chat with me while I (senselessly) tried to hold it together. I finally stopped trying to hold back and let everything pour out, while he held me tight and listened. I soaked his shirt with tears and snot and we talked. It was then I realized that love is being able to be so angry - so pissed off - with someone while still being embraced by the same person.

So we talked, and talked some more, and we just shared, and came to understandings. And he apologized. But that's what you do when someone calls you a bonehead. The best feeling came later. MW went to shower, and went back to reading, eventually nodding off. MW returned from his shower, after processing what I said, and sat on my bed, looked at me, and really apologized, on his own.

Sometimes, being an adult isn't such a bad thing.

Well, I don't hate my parents
I don't get drunk just to spite them
I've got my own reasons to drink now
Think I'll call my dad up and invite him
I can sleep in 'til noon anytime I want
Though there's not many days that I do
Gotta get up and take on that world
When you're an adult it's no cliche, it's the truth

'Cause I'm an adult now I'm an adult now
I've got the problems of an adult
On my head and on my shoulders
I'm an adult now

I can't even look at young girls anymore
People will think I'm some kind of pervert
Adult sex is either boring or dirty
Young people they can get away with murder
I don't write songs about girls anymore
I have to write songs about women
No more boy meets girl boy loses girl
More like man tries to figure out what the hell went wrong

'Cause I'm an adult now
I'm an adult now
I've got the problems of an adult
On my head and on my shoulders
I'm an adult now

I can't take any more illicit drugs
I can't afford any artificial joy
I'd sure look like a fool lying dead in a ditch somewhere
With a mind full of chemicals like some cheese-eating high school boy

'Cause I'm an adult now
I'm an adult now
I've got the problems of an adult
On my head and on my shoulders
I'm an adult now

Sometimes my head hurts and sometimes my stomach hurts
And I guess that it won't be long
'Til I'm sitting in a room with a bunch of people whose necks and backs are aching
Whose sight and hearing's failing who just can't seem to get it up
Speaking of hearing, I can't take too much loud music
I mean I like to play it, but I sure don't like the racket
Noise, but I can't hear anything
Just guitars screaming, screaming, screaming
Some guy screaming in a leather jacket
Wooah!

'Cause I'm an adult now
I'm an adult now
I've got the problems of an adult
On my head and on my shoulders
I'm an adult now

- 'I'm An Adult Now,' by The Pursuit Of Happiness


Woooah! Indeed.

I wish I had some pictures to share, but my computer is was dead, but it seems to have suddenly risen from the dead, so I will try to get some this weekend. All in all, though, things are great. I sense that MW is a little bit in freak out mode since the anti-climax of moving in and getting a whole bunch of new stuff. Soon the bill will come pouring in. Later than expected though, since there was a snafu, so we are actually only closing at the end of the month. Despite not having cable or internet access for the last week, we managed pretty well. We now own the first seasons of the Fresh Prince of Bel Air and House. I've been trying to keep things looking "nice", but it is a futile attempt since MW has decide to become a borderline alcoholic and refuses to put his bottles of beer away. It's hard not looking like white trash.

Speaking of which, we've been spending a lot of time at Zellers. The other night, we passed by two men lifting a portable air conditioner into a cart. When we arrived at the cash, it turns out that those men actually walked right out with it without paying, put it into a waiting van and drove off.

And beside Zellers, inside the little mall we've been wondering around in, is a little pet store that makes me stabby. It's dirty, and the animals look uncared for. And, he's selling kittens for $100; which drives me mental when you look on the SPCA and look at all the cats and kittens who are facing death because there is such an overpopulation of them in this city. Why doesn't the laws of supply and demand apply to animals??

Ranting, sorry. So, the driving. After 12 years, two Young Drivers courses, and one failed driving test, I finally got the damn license. I feel... ambivalent about it. I'm glad that the monkey is off my back, and that I no longer have to sheepishly excuse my lack of license to employers or whoever asks. I'm proud of myself for overcoming a phobia that I was ashamed about for so long. But still, MW and I don't have an intention to buy a vehicle for at least a few years. It would be nice to have one, but as it is now, the budget will be tight, and it seems that owning a car isn't getting any cheaper. I'd love, love, love to have some kind of car share program but I suspect that is quite a ways off.

Back to the house again. We're lazy, but I hope to have some sort of housewarming event sometime soon. Ish. It will likely be a 'show up whenever' type of event so people aren't obligated to stay, can nosh a bit and can just come and be nosy (that's what I'd want, heh).

1) We've all moved, things are, all things considered, good. No cable yet, so I bought the 1st season of Fresh Prince of Bel-Air on DVD.

2) I GOT MY FRICKIN LICENSE ABOUT AN HOUR AGO. FINALLY!